September 14th, 2001


(no subject)

i have not dealt with this
i have not processed this
i can not comprehend this
i am numb, and it is not comfortable
it is not comfortable at all
i have cried but i need to howl in pain
i can't do it
not yet
i haven't had a hug since this happened
i need one
maybe then i could let go and fall apart
i need to fall apart before i can begin to rebuild